WHAT IS YOUR FOOTPRINTS?

Yesterday evening, I met a person who is now facing a very difficult situation. Because of some delicate issues, he is forced to leave his present job in the next few months. And you know what, he started to work for this company only six months ago. He loves his job, his co workers, the challenges, the leadership, the mission of the company and everything related with his job. 'Though problems are everywhere and everytime, I feel that I am in the ideal place right now,' he commented on his present job. He has not yet discovered what to do for the next stage of his life. His future is undecided. He knows already that his time is very short to find a new job. He is responsible not only to himself, but also for his family. He understands that the global crisis may prevent him to get a job he likes to do. In short, he is stress and feeling under heavy pressure. My prompt guess: He must be worrying about his uncertain future.

As a ‘half-pastor,’ I asked him to share what has been the cause of his stress, with the hope that I may be a little help to him. He said that his awareness of time is now escalating. ‘Oh, my time is short,’ he sighed. My mouth automatically opens bombing him with sermon. I cut his sentence by encouraging and suggesting him to apply for jobs as many as possible. ‘God will open doors or at least one door for you,’ I said. ‘No, No, No!’ he replied immediately. ‘Yes, I am worrying about my unknown future, but that is not the real disturbing issue,’ he continued ‘What I am truly worrying is the fact that my left time to work with this company is becoming shorter and shorter – and I am feeling with a great fear of leaving this company without leaving any positive footprints.’

‘You know Ery,’ he said, ‘Finding a new job in the crisis situation is absolutely not easy, but being forced to leave something that you fall in love with and you feel that God has called you to do is a big horror.’ He continued, ‘My main and first focus is now not to find a new job, but to express my love dedicatedly to my present job in this company as part of my accountability to God in the left short available time.’ ‘I want to make sure that my presence in this company whatever short it is contributes something significant and positive whatever small it is,’ he gently said. ‘Have I? Am I? Will I? Can I?’ he asked, begging a possible possibility.

I went home without peace in mind, questioning myself if there is any good I left to my family, my friends, my place of work, and to this world. As I approaching 40, my sense of time is escalating: my left available time to live in this world is becoming shorter and shorter – and I am accountable to God for the life He grants me to live.